It’s been quite a few years since I have attempted university studies and I admit I’m excited about starting an Arts degree at Macquarie Uni (through Open Universities) at the beginning of March.
Last week I ordered the text book for my first subject, Cultural Studies: Theory and Practice by Chris Baker, which surprisingly arrived at my doorstep only two days later. Unfortunately, in the place of the laid-back Arts degree text book I was expecting, I received a book filled with some rather large words and an intimidating number of topics and subtopics.
Panic set in as I wondered what on earth I was getting myself into.
After ten and a half years at home with at least one child fulltime, I’m left wondering whether I’m still able to function mentally on a level that involves discussions with words of more than 3 syllables. Some days it’s a miracle that I can even remember my own name, how am I supposed to intelligently compose an essay on topics like ‘subject positions and the politics of representation’ or ‘The institutions of modernity: the dynamism of capitalist modernity’.
I feel like Dorothy walking fearfully through the enchanted woods near Oz. ‘Isms’, ‘ists’ and ‘tions’. Oh, my!
I can relate to Seraphim’s recent post at Oh, the Possibilities where she discusses loosing her ability to turn off her mother-brain. Opportunities to discuss subjects that aren’t in some way related to children and family life can be few and far between for a stay-at-home mum and when the opportunity does present itself, it can be quite difficult to refocus.
I’m psyching myself up for an interesting few weeks as I try to kick start my long neglected brain and switch into university mode. I’m not sure whether it’s possible, but I’m willing to try and I’m looking forward to challenging myself with this course.
Wish me luck.by