A few things have happened this week that have really highlighted for me how much I have been drifting lately, personally and professionally.
Rather than launch into a long and drawn out, angst-ridden post, I’ll summarise by saying that it has been brought to my attention that I’m doing lots but not getting very far at the moment. I’m writing and studying, but I don’t have any clear idea in my head of where either of these things is taking me or even where I want them to take me.
Well, that’s not entirely true. I would love either or both to take me to a point where I can proudly tell people that I am a writer and justify visiting the various Australian writers’ festivals as a legitimate business expense. International writers’ conventions and book fairs would be nice too. It would be great to be paid for doing what I love and in the process share something important with others.
There you go. It would appear that I want a meaningful, creative career that pays well and involves national and international travel. No problem.
I feel like someone has pressed the mute button on my life. Everything is in soft-focus, shadowy and half-formed. I even dress in clothes that help me fade into the background.
I’ve decided it’s time to step up and live life loud. Time to get focused, find some direction and really put my whole heart into what I am doing instead of always holding something in reserve and allowing negative comments from family to make me question myself and my abilities.
I’m going to start writing posts about people and things that inspire me here at Reading Upside Down. I’m going to think out loud about what is important and hopefully inspire a few other people along the way to join me in rekindling their passion for what they do.
Stay tuned. We’ve only just begun!
For my first piece of inspiration, check out this video of ‘How You Live (Turn Up the Music) by Point of Grace. I love the lines ‘Wear your red dress, use your good dishes, make lots of mess and make lots of wishes’. It’s time to ‘turn up the music’.by